Love x seven!

Today Adam & I have been together for seven years.

I had such a fantastic day/evening. Adam had a shoot this morning and came back around 12pm with the very lovely Alana. She is also a photographer who shares a studio with Adam. She is such a beautiful person and we spent a good hour or so having some chats over a can of Pepsi Max.

A big package (that I have been waiting for, for three months – my birthday present from Adam!) arrived today and it was my Diana F+ Deluxe Camera Kit. I was so excited because I have been waiting soooo long for it to get to Australia from the USA. I assume I will be spending most of tomorrow playing around with it! yay.

Adam and I decided to go into town to check out a couple of stores we both had in mind for eachothers gifts. I purchased him a Gucci ring and he bought me a pair of earrings and bracelet from Tiffany & Co. Yup, we love to spoil and I think we both deserved it! Whilst I was in T & Co I got my engagement ring cleaned and polished (free of charge!) and it looks even more amazing as it is blinding me every time I look at it.

We booked a table at the C restaurant in the city for dinner. For those who are not familiar with it, it is a revolving restaurant that sits at the top of a building over the river on the 33rd floor. It was nice to have a chance to dress up for the first time in a long time and prepare my face with pretty makeup (I reaaally needed to draw my eyebrows in as they have thinned out a lot…) and just feel special going on a proper date. I wore a tight pink dress which came quite low on my chest area. I had my port scars visible and my mastectomy scar was visible if you were close enough and looking, I didn’t care one bit and didn’t feel self-conscious at all. When I first put my dress on I didn’t have a bra on and my left breast side was very obviously not there and the other side was kinda there (thank god for my small titties). I found a box in my wardrobe which had two chicken fillet inserts that mum and Jess bought me whilst I was in hospital for my mastectomy surgery and put the left side into the dress. It was still not great, but definitely better… I then put on a padded strapless bra and wow… no one would know! I was so happy to look semi decent in my little pink dress!

I also wore my wig out both today and tonight, its so weird that I look in the mirror with it and I don’t even think twice about it. It looks exactly like my hair before I was diagnosed. Same colour and style. Unbelievable….

Front

Close Up

Side

Oh, also! Today I recieved some amazing mail from my friend SJ who I used to work with. She wrote a beautiful card for me and also got crafty and made me this….

Yes, I have always had a thing for the band Good Charlotte and the twins Joel and Benji Madden. So this is what this masterpiece is all about. THANK YOU SJ FOR MAKING MY DAY EVEN BRIGHTER THAN IT WAS!!!!! ❤

So I have been feeling pretty good today. I exercised for about 40 minutes all up today too. I have been having a sensitive inside of my nose and a few bleeds and now experiencing some horrible pain in my finger nails. My left thumb and right index finger both have the nails pulling off the nail bed (off the skin). The pain is horrific, throbbing and I am really scared because I have always had a terrible fear of fingernail and toenail injuries.

I have also been talking/joking around with a few people about medicinal marijuana and if its possible for me to get hold of any. I just researched it on wikipedia and found this:

Although the extent of the medicinal value of cannabis has been disputed, and despite the opposition to research and use put forward by most national governments, it does have several well-documented beneficial effects. Among these are: the amelioration of nausea and vomiting, stimulation of hunger in chemotherapy and AIDS patients, lowered intraocular eye pressure (shown to be effective for treating glaucoma), as well as gastrointestinal illness. Its effectiveness as an analgesic has been suggested (and disputed), as well.

There are several methods for administration of dosage, including vaporizing or smoking dried buds, smoking, drinking, or eating extracts, and taking capsules. The comparable efficacy of these methods was the subject of an investigative study conducted by the National Institutes of Health.

Breast cancer: According to a 2007 study at the California Pacific Medical Center Research Institute, cannabidiol (CBD) may stop breast cancer from spreading throughout the body. These researchers believe their discovery may provide a non-toxic alternative to chemotherapy while achieving the same results minus the painful and unpleasant side effects. The research team says that CBD works by blocking the activity of a gene called Id-1, which is believed to be responsible for a process called metastasis, which is the aggressive spread of cancer cells away from the original tumor site.

Helllll’s yeah I need to speak to my Oncologist in regards to this subject when I see her on Thursday. I don’t know much about it for Australia as a law/medical issue, but I will see if I am even just allowed to smoke it whilst on chemo. That could be a very pleasant time for me for my boring days/nights!

And that is all, Goodnight.

Love Chi Chi  xxxxx

 

Love x seven!

Sunday/Monday

Yesterday was actually was actually a continuation of my ‘What a weekend’ post but I became very sleepy yesterday evening and couldn’t be bothered posting again.

So… Sunday morning I woke up feeling fantastic! I got up reasonably early and cleaned the whole house, did four loads of washing and still had enough energy to go get a boost juice with Ad. We discovered a new favorite flavour which is less sweet than the ones I was getting before so I was pretty happy about that. I also reached my ‘buy 10 get one free’ on my members card so I might have to get another one tomorrow!

Whilst awaiting our delicious juices, the book store became handy again for a browse. Adam found a cool book called ‘The Bandana Book – 103 uses’ and bought it for me. 🙂 I then stumbled across a ‘Fortune Telling’ book. I had been meaning to actually go see a Psychic/tarot card reader just after I was diagnosed and this reminded me I had not done it yet. So why not read the book and give it a go myself. Plus, for $9.95 and some extra brain stimulation, how can you go wrong!?

We then cruised in the summer heat down to Cottesloe for a small bite to eat at ‘Vans’. We usually go there for special occasions but today was an exception.

I’ve been having some really bizarre, creepy dreams lately. So vivid and real. My sleeping patterns are a mess and these dreams are the kind I’d imagine a serial killer to have. Seriously. The imagination in this head of mine is amazing and I think it could create some really great movies or something.

I’ve also noticed in the last couple of days of feeling so good, that maybe these vitamins I am taking through my Naturopath are really working. I am so much more alert and energised. Maybe its a combination of the vitamins, the immunity, protein and energiser packs I get in my boost juices and the Neulasta® immunity booster injection. (prescribed to reduce the risk of infection (initially marked by fever) in patients with some tumors receiving strong chemotherapy that decreases the number of infection-fighting white blood cells). I am saying goodbye to being Febrile Neutrophilic for the rest of my chemo now. I ain’t going to go through that again!

Monday I had a follow up appointment with my Endocrinologist. We just discussed my diabetes control since chemo. How the steroids (Dexmethasone) raises my BSL for the 3-4 days I take it, insulin adjustments, regular hypoglycemic acts I have been having, nausea resulting on diabetes etc. I brought along with me my medical forms to be completed by my GP for my drivers license – the ones that a recent GP wouldn’t sign for me because I had ‘bad control’ pfft… doctors know nothing about diabetes. Its such a general known subject and no one understands how it all really works. I explained that whole situation with the endocrinologist and he just nodded and agreed with me as if he had heard it a million times. He allowed me to leave the forms with him to be signed and sent back to the licensing center. Thank god I will be able to actually obtain a license!

Lunch was spent with mum, dad, Jess and Adam. It was really nice. Dad is back from his short golf tour in Sydney so its always nice to see him when he returns.

Jess and I about to eat a delicious feast.

This afternoon I went to see my recommended breast reconstruction surgeon. What can I say…. He is UNREAL. He was very sympathetic, the veryyy opposite of pushy and in general a really sweet man. He said most of his patients are breast cancer patients so he is pretty experienced in working with mastectomies/lumpectomies.

I still want to have my second breast removed – as I stated from the very start of this whole cancer bullshit. Because I don’t think I would ever like to go through this journey again at any time in my life. Also because it will be a fresh canvas to start on for breast reconstruction and make them look as symmetrical as possible. He showed me some photos and I was blown away at what he can create from a flat chest scar. No one would be able to tell I once had no breasts. The scars are a bit gnarly but that shows my story and they do fade within a year. I am willing to sacrifice that for some pretty chest mounds. I will be seeing him again in mid Feb after chemo finishes (before radiotherapy) and will be able to look into surgery 3 months after radiotherapy. Even though I will still be receiving Herceptin through my port, the surgery can still go ahead.

I am so excited.. I cannot wait to tell Adam when he comes home. Such great news to tell the day before our seven year anniversary tomorrow!

Sunday/Monday

What a weekend!

I have been pretty lucky this weekend and actually had quite an eventful time. I think I deserved this after such a terrible friday of being sick.

Friday consisted of getting in and out out of bed constantly and running to the bathroom. I felt so unwell and anti-nausea was not helping. I also took a couple of Gastro-stop pills to help me. I also had to resort to rubbing my bum with nappy rash cream after crying on the toilet several times. I stayed in bed and slept a lot too and just knew my body would be a bit happier if I wasted the day resting.

Kindly enough, Jess came over in the evening with some gingerbread men her and mum had baked for me. They turned out pretty a bit dodgy but still delicious, here is the reject ones that they thought I would enjoy…

As Adam works for Dorcia or Control till wee hours in the morning on fridays, Jess stayed the night and we had a good time cooking some rosemary lamb and salad, drinking pepsi max, listening to Nicki Minaj and watching Hotrod with Brooklyn. I am lucky to have such a nice sister as a best friend to hang out with. I love her so much!

I went to bed about 2:30 and Adam came home not long after. He fell asleep long before I did and I started to get anxious because I had realised my sleeping patterns were starting to turn crappy. The last week I have had trouble falling asleep and waking up every hour or two and not being able to get back to sleep. I guess sleeping in the day time would cause this, but also the fact my body is relying so much on painkillers that when they wear off, I just need more. I only realised today (sunday) that this night/morning I became addicted to bidding on ebay on my Iphone, in bed. Shit.

Saturday I was feeling a lot better. Jess and I went to the city – just as we were leaving the house, I got a text message from muy friend Julia saying ‘Open your front door at 2.30pm!’ I wrote back saying expressing how sorry I was because we were just leaving the house and it was about 1:45 at the time.. I didn’t hear back from her and so I kind of forgot she had sent the text… Anyway, Jess also wore a head scarf to support me which I thought was really sweet. We got a lot of people looking at us and kinda smirking in a nice way – which was nice. I think it was very obvious I had no hair! It was a very nice afternoon and the weather here is amazing. I love the hot steamy heat of Perth. I wouldn’t change it for anything! We had my favorite lunch – Vietnamese rolls, lots of mineral water and did lots of walking around. I was exhausted by the time we got back to the car but I felt like I did need a good walk around.

When we got home, I had a lovely surprise from Miss Julia. She had some pretty pink and purple helium balloons with a note sent to my house! Here we go again with amazing people and sweet gestures 🙂 As we pulled up to the house in the car, the balloons had blown across from my front door to the corner of the laneway and a little girl (round about 5 years old) and her dad were coming down past the balloons.. I was in the car thinking ‘oh no, shes going to take them!’ I jumped out of the car and she was off her bike running to them and I had to tell her and her dad – ‘I’m sooo sorry but they are from my friend!’ The father looked at me as if I was the meanest bitch out and said ‘Well… your lucky because if it was 5 minutes later they would of been stolen.’.. Okay… So I understand the little girl would of been devastated, but the balloons clearly had a huge note written across the BIG pink metallic balloon in permanent marker. What kind of dad teaches their daughter to take things that aren’t theirs!? Pfft…

Not long after this incident, I jumped onto Skype with the lovely Kylie. We spent about 40 minutes or so chatting and catching up. She taught me a new and improved way of wearing bandanas/scarfs. They now look so much better! Best fashion advice I have had in a while – Thanks Ky! Louis and Kylie will be coming back from Melbourne for a visit just after xmas so I am looking forward to spending more time with her this time than the one day I spent with her when she was last over.

Yes, there is stillllll more.. Adam and I took Brooklyn to the dog beach (her first time!) and got to watch the sunset with the wonderful warm weather. It was so nice just feeling carefree and running around with my favorites of company. We got some nice snaps and a video of Boo Boo’s first beach trip so heres just a couple of snaps…

Yup, I was wearing a wig to the beach, of all places.. kinda strange huh?

Even after the beach we still had time and energy to go see our friends at ‘Bondi’. Brooklyn had a crazy puppy love play with Huxley (Chicko’s little Boston Terrier pup) for a while before it was way past dinner time and I felt a bit fait and lethargic… Helloooo double cheeseburger meal! For some reason Mcdonalds decided that giving me a triple cheeseburger instead was a better idea. But no. I stuck to my double and pulled out a meat pattie. Pretty glad that I did that to be honest. Three meats is craaazy!

Aaaaaahhhhhhhhh…. (Heaven noise)

 

What a weekend!